First off lets rewind to last Monday, I was having a terrible day..one of those when I just don't understand why everything happens the way it does. I was on my way home feeling exhausted, drained somewhat lifeless and HE knew this, he sent me a sign that he was looking out for me. That sign; "Knockin' On Heavens Door" came on the radio. I pulled over, I cranked up my volume and I cried.
Why does this song have such an impact on me, you ask? The night my grandfather died I drove to my moms to pick her up and then to my grandparents. While driving I sobbed, my mom sobbed..we just felt so numb. I asked God "Lord, please send me a sign...let me know he is with you, and safe. Please let me know he isn't suffering anymore", I repeated this over and over again. My family and I had two hours with him before he was taken from the home.....
(I'm balling as I type this, the emotions are just as raw as they were when he left us.)
I knelt beside him to say"Goodbye", I rubbed his face...I kissed his head and I said prayer. I asked the lord again to send me a sign. My grandfather laid peacefully in his bed, beside him his nightstand and his radio which was still playing his AM radio talk show. During this moment on the radio (A TALK SHOW, not regular music station) came Bob Dylan's "Knockin On Heavens Door". God works is such mysterious ways, I asked and he answered. I looked up at my mom, we had never felt so saddened yet relived at the same time. I knew that was his sign, I knew my grandpa was safe.
NOT.ONE.SINGLE.DAY.GOES.BY.THAT.I.DON'T.MISS.HIM!
We are nearing 4 years since he left, he may not be here physically but everyday he lives on in my heart and in my memories.
I love and miss you, Grandpa!
Love, Katie
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